My Creativeness

Crushed - a short work of fiction

Sat, 27 Aug 2005 01:47:28 GMT

Lightening lit the black sky, striking out to all points visible in the horizion. Thunder rumbled as waves crashed against the shore.

She stumbled forward, her fingertips brushing againt the grain.

Rain pounded to the earth, erroding lose ground and stinging the flesh.

She stumbled again, losing her balance on the unsteady surface. Knees landed against sand as she fell forward. Her forehead landed against the wet sand and she stayed there for a moment drawing in much needed air.

'In and out, in and out' she repeated in her head while she sucked in as much air as was humanly possible.

As the wind whipped strands of crushed granet hair against doll like skin, she threw her head back. Rain beat against flesh, plastering strands of hair to her face and washed away signs of the tears that
pooled from her chocolate fudge eyes.

Lightening flashed again, illuminating the angst. Her body shook as she chocked back sobs, as muffled sound emitted from her lips; as pain wretched through her soul.

She watched as lightening rippeled from here to there, as electricty crackeled through the air.

Her lips parted as a scream ripped from her lungs, the angst and pain as plain as the primative emotions. It caught in the wind and chased away the time as the tears fell freshly opened wounds.

Slowly she lifted her hands, the sand she had been clutching fell.

"Why?" she screamed, the rawness of her feelings present?

The metal glistened with the next flash of lightening and than it was gone, plunged into her breast as though guided by imaginary hands.

Her screamed ripped through the air; tears streamed down her face as she pulled the knife from muscle and flesh. It moved slowly, her hands guiding it back until it rested against bloody palms.

Muscles trembling she lifted those open palms and the pain slowly spread.

Her eyes closed as she felt the soft caress of his mouth against hers; as crimson blood trickled between parted lips.

The knife fell to the ground, landing silently in the sand as final breath choked itself from her body.

She fell forward, her face falling to the side. Soulless eyes as cold as ice watched the rain fall. Watched as it slowly washed away the clotting blood down the sandy shore and into the ocean. Watched as her
life was carried away by the ragging water - - alone.

A bit behind

Thu, 18 Aug 2005 01:09:14 GMT

Hi all. Sorry about the delay in getting things up. Have a bit of a health issue going on right now that's kept me from the computer. I will get the voting up tonight but the next challenge won't be posted until Friday night.

Something else that I've been thinking of is bringing in a Co-mod. I know I just assumed ownership of the group but I also admit that right now I need some help with running the group. If anyone is interested, please get in touch with me.

Thanks;

jenn

Requests

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 23:20:45 GMT

I am currently taking requests for icons / bases. If you would like to request icons / bases, please leave a comment in this post. If there is a certain image(s) or text(s)/quote(s) that you would like to see on the icon, please include them in your comments. A link to the image is fine.

If you have any questions, please feel free to ask them. :)

New Icons

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 23:18:58 GMT

The following are icons that I made today (7-3).

* NO hotlinking
* If used, CREDIT is required - a_woman_apart
* DO NOT change any of these icons
* COMMENT if taking any
* Enjoy them

1. 2. 3. 4. 5. 6. 7.

Older Icons

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 23:14:26 GMT

The following are some older icons that I made. I found them on my computer and thought I'd share them with everyone.

* NO hotlinking
* If used, CREDIT is REQUIRED - a_woman_apart
* DO NOT change any of these icons
* COMMENT if taking any icons
* Enjoy them

1. 2. 3. 4. 5. 6. 7. 8. 9. 10. 11. 12. 13. 14. 15. 16. 17.

Multiple Bases

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 16:17:42 GMT

Oh but before I go, I want to share some bases I made for icons. I have decided I want to have fun on the computer instead of just...coming on and doing crap.

Comment if taking any
Credit is nice - a_woman_apart - but not required if making icons from the bases; if you use the base as an icon, please credit me.
NO hotlinking
NO claiming as your own bases

Abstract - 2
Nature - 9
Stage / Music - 3
Writing - 2
Misc - 7

Abstract

1. 2.

Nature

1. 2. 3. 4. 5. 6. 7. 8. 9.

Stage / Music

1. 2. 3.

Writing

1. 2.

Misc

1. 2. 3. 4. 5. 6. 7.

Multiple Bases

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 16:15:33 GMT

Hi everyone. I spent this afternoon making some more misc. bases.

Please comment if taking the bases - a_woman_apart
Credit isn't required if you use the base to make an icon; but is required if you just use the base as an icon
If you make an icon, I'd like to see it but it's not required

* 3 Transportation
* 13 Buildings
* 10 Nature
* 10 Christmas
* 3 Candles
* 16 Food

Transportation

1. 2. 3.

Buildings

1. 2. 3. 4. 5. 6. 7. 8. 9. 10. 11. 12. 13.

Nature

1. 2. 3. 4. 5. 6. 7. 8. 9. 10.

Christmas

1. 2. 3. 4. 5. 6. 7. 8. 9. 10.

Candles

1. 2. 3.

Food

1. 2. 3. 4. 5. 6. 7. 8. 9. 10. 11. 12. 13. 14. 15. 16.

Multiple Bases

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 16:13:36 GMT

Buffy the Vampire Slayer (Television Show) Bases

1. 2. 3. 4. 5. 6. 7. 8. 9. 10. 11. 12. 13. 14. 15. 16. 17. 18. 19. 20. 21. 22. 23. 24. 25. 26. 27. 28. 29. 30. 31. 32. 33. 34. 35. 36. 37. 38. 39.

Scott Stapp

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The Scarlet Pimpernel

1. 2. 3. 4. 5. 6. 7. 8. 9. 10. 11.

Tropical

1. 2. 3. 4. 5. 6. 7.

Sunset Boulevard

1. 2. 3. 4.

Lonestar

1. 2.

+ 39 Buffy the Vampire Slayer (TV Show) Bases
+ 42 Scott Stapp Bases
+ 11 The Scarlet Pimpernel Bases
+ 7 Tropical Bases
+ 4 Sunset Boulevard Bases
+ 2 Lonestar Bases

*~* Please comment if taking any of the bases *~*
*~* Credit is nice but not needed if creating icons ~*~
~*~ If using base as icon please credit a_woman_apart ~*~
~*~ NO HOTLINKING ~*~
~*~ Images come from google image searches ~*~

Harder to Breathe

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 05:06:57 GMT

It was cold outside.
It was cold inside.
It was getting harder and harder to breathe.
There was no one left to love.
There was no one left to dream.
There were no more miracles.

She had pushed and pulled;
Played one game
And then played another
Until he had walked out the door.

No one to blame but herself.
Is there anyone out there?
What are you doing?
Screwing things up in her head?

It was all too confusing.
She didn’t understand it anymore.
He walked out the door;
She walked through the door.

Where was she?
There was no more thoughts in her head.
It was too cold inside with no one to love.
So much harder to breathe.

How dare you say her behavior is unexpected.

There she was lying in that long box surrounded by dirt...

It made it harder and harder to breathe.

It Makes You

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 05:06:18 GMT

Tiny beats of steady fingers
It takes you over with one stroke, one caress
Slowly it over comes you
Numbs your senses
Your body shivers
Your mind slips
Your skin tingles
You feel it in your mind, your fingers, your toes
You feel it in your heart
And with every breath that you take
It beats with each beat of your heart
Travels with each thrust
Grows and over takes you
Makes you one
Makes you complete
It becomes you

- Music

Thorn of Rose

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 05:05:11 GMT

On this thorn of rose I pray
That my love shall continue
For I but go, I bid farewell
My love go on in one
With this blood of mine, I sign my name
Not my family, nor my friends
Have enough love for me to go on
But one is enough for thee, and that one has gone
My sorrow shall fall like rain on hateful days
Do not come forth thee, do not stop thee
My blood shall cover the hands of all
Who tried to stop my own Romeo
'Tis but my day go on
With this red rose and thorn
I DIE for thee, he DIE for thee
We DIE together, our love go on
And with this last breath
I pray that my love go on
Do not DIE for thee, you must LIVE for thee.

Sweet Temptation

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 05:04:38 GMT

Sweet temptation of star
and moon a sky upon
I think I see your eyes again
watching me as I sleep
why do you watch me so
if you love another
why must it be I who feels
so much and yet feels so
little in return from you
unless deep down inside
you feel a love for I that
I know nothing about
and if you feel a love for I
than why can I not know about it
tell me upon the rising of the sun
gaze into my eyes the same colour
as yours are and holding the same mystery
and tell me that you love me so
tell me that I am the beauty in your life
the one that makes the world see colourful
tell me that I make the wind whisper
a sweet song each time I pass
gaze into my eyes and tell me one
true thing from the bottom of your heart
tell me I am your moi amour am

The Name Game

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 05:04:05 GMT

Just like the years gone by
Everything dances upon thy eye
Not one, come near
No, not two do fear
Inside of a lover's heart
First I wander in the mart
Eat ripe grapes tonight
Run little mice from thy light

Little children do wonder
You scare them with your thunder
Night time falls to soon
No they can't jump over the moon

Big ones and tiny toons
I know you think I'm from the loons
Little eggs I grow
Like ducklings in a row
Igloos don't just melt
God the cold I felt

The Meaning of Life

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 05:03:24 GMT

Can you show me the meaning of life
as we stand here passing each other in a blaze
Can you please explain to me why it always ends this way
when we know we should change it somehow
And can you bring me the moon back on a tray
with the sun sitting there too
Toss in some stars and a planet
Since I think your the universe
I'll sit here until the end, waiting for you to come
so that maybe you can explain to me, the meaning of
life as you see it.

Can you show me what I did wrong
so I don't do it yet again
Can you please explain to me why I did it again
standing here giving my heart away to thee
And can you bring me the moon back on a tray
with the sun sitting there too
Toss in some stars and a planet
Since I think your the universe
I'll sit here until the end, waiting for you to come
so that maybe you can explain to me, the meaning of
life as you see it.

Can you show me the meaning of love
now that I think I understand it
Can you please explain to me how one person can
love someone so much and yet not get any love in return
And can you bring me the moon back on a tray
with the sun sitting there too
Toss in some stars and a planet
Since I think your the universe
I'll sit here until the end, waiting for you to come
so that maybe you can explain to me, the meaning of life as you see it.

Can you show me as the time passes
each and every time I messed up
Can you please show me where I did wrong
so as I do not mess up again.
And can you bring me the moon back on a tray
with the sun sitting there too
Toss in some stars and a planet
Since I think your the universe
I'll sit here until the end, waiting for you to come
so that maybe you can explain to me, the meaning of
life as you see it.

Drip

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 05:02:45 GMT

Prick your finger angel child
Watch the blood go
Drip
Drip
Drip
The only life you can give now
Crimson with the air so
Drip
Drip
Drip
Slowly bleeding out
Watch your life slip away
Drip
Drip
Drip

Color of my Life

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 05:02:17 GMT

Oh there was a time
when I thought the world was gray
and that all the color in my life had left
but I was wrong, because I found you.
Yes I found you.
And when you walked into my life,
you brought the color that I knew was missing
I don't know how and I don't know when
but you brought the color back to my life
It started out as something simple.
Something I didn't plan on happening
but for some strange reason I found
myself looking for the life you brought back with you
And when you walked into my life
you brought the color that I knew was missing
I don't know how and I don't know when
But you brought the color back to my life
Now I find myself wishing you were here more
and we had something more than we have
but I know that’s not the case right now
as I sit here and watch you go about your life
And when you walked into my life
you brought the color that I knew was missing
I don't know how and I don't know when
But you brought the color back to my life
I wish it could be as simple
as the saying boy meets girl
or love at first sight
but for some reason its been made a pain
something that won't happen easily
And when you walked into my life
you brought the color that I knew was missing
I don't know how and I don't know when
But you brought the color back to my life
So I'll sit here until the end of time
and watch as the stars pass the moon
I'll sit here and wait until you come to your senses
and realize I'm the one for you.
And when you walked into my life
you brought the color that I knew was missing
I don't know how and I don't know when
But you brought the color back to my life

Best Friends

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 05:01:40 GMT

You’ve become a part of me
Somehow over time, you’ve woven yourself in
Until you became a vital part
And now I can’t sleep at night
Until I know you care
And I miss you like crazy
Even though it’s nothing more
You’re always on my mind
Yet you don’t know
What you do to me
You’re my best friend
I don’t even know how
Or when it happened
But you’ve become someone there
And I don’t want you to go away.

Forever Darkness

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 05:00:57 GMT

And than, eternal darkness enclosed me,
Forever over my heart a thick veil,
Of loneliness and sorrow as you left.
No goodbye, no final kiss, no touch to speak of as you slipped into night
My soul went with you, left to wander aimlessly
Through the vast catacombs of a fiery hell.
Night after night I cry your name from my slumber
Your presence invading my very sanity.
Blindly I fumble for you,
I wanted you, needed you, loved you.
Hours of desperation, days upon months.
I learned to continue living,
My heart forever closed off.
Others came, others tried but no one prevailed.
Hours, days, months came, you stayed gone,
Till that one night I saw you.
An angel of hope, a mirage to my mind.
A drink of water to a dying man.
Your eyes met mine, my heart came to life.
I wanted to hold you, to reach for you.
My arms yearned to cradle you.
My lips to kiss you.
I saw the same emotions in your eyes.
I want you, need you, love you.
I stand before you, broken and lost,
Nothing to offer but an empty shell.
You hold the power to save me,
To bring me to life.
I need only one thing, want only one thing, the same you have of me.
Your heart, your soul,
Every fiber of your Being and mind,
Your Love.

Always There

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 05:00:19 GMT

No matter the time
No matter the situation
You’re always there for me
Through the panic
Through the fear
You’re always there for me
You’ve been hurt because of me
I’ve been hurt because of you
We’re always there for each other
Ups, downs and all arounds
Night – day; summer and winter
We’re always there for each other
Through the tears and sorrow
Through the pain and sickness
We’re always there for each other
Joy and happiness together
Good times and laughs
We’re always there for each other
Best friends and partners
To me you are my Faith
You’re always there for me
My guiding light
My one true thing
My only hope, my only joy
My every breath, my every moment
Somehow I love you
You are my Faith

Dying Inside

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 04:59:38 GMT

I'm dying inside.
Piece by piece breaks away.
Can't let anyone through.
They'll never get it.

Why is it so hard?

Just put into words how you feel.
And watch as others begin to peel.
Hide away in the lonely dark.
It'll make it harder to paint a mark.

In an instand one's dreams can die.
A single word, a sentence, a report.
They can all shatter ones hopes.

How can I make you understand?
What this pain deep inside does.
I'm broken and can't be fixed.
Why did this happen to me?

Just Walk Away

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 04:59:07 GMT

As I lie awake,
With the darkness surronding me,
And the emptiness over comes,
I close my eyes and wish it all away.

I hide away from the pain,
Of finding my dreams shattered again,
And I wonder why happiness aludes;
All the times my life has exploded.

And I hold the copper between my fingers,
And close my eyes.
I make a wish,
And throw it all away.

Turning my back, I begin to walk.
As I begin to understand,
I'll hold it all inside,
Buried beneath a wall of strenth.

I understand now to ease my pain.
My dreams remain broken.
And I'll just walk away.

Stone Tower

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 04:58:30 GMT

Locked away in a stone tower,
With the ladder gone,
And the steps crumbling,
Lives a girl who's only waiting
For her prince.
She knows he's not going to come.
And yet she wishes.
Her life disappeared,
And her dreams were burst.
Yet she holds onto that star.
The towns people gaze up.
All wondering why she hasn't quit.
The hand she's been dealt,
In the game of life,
Would have broken so many.
Yet her spirt fights on.
Inside she's a shattered soul.
Yet she still believes in a love,
Built on faith and trust.
In her heart she'll never leave.
When there's still a string of hope.

Drowning in You

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 04:57:59 GMT

You've become my passion.
Slowly growing until you've swallowed me whole.
I'm crumbling fast, the wall I've built is falling.
Pebble by pebble, you've become part of my world.
But you've built your own wall,
Surrounding yourself in my soul.

My spirt is stuck somewhere cold.
I'm drowning in myself.
Trying to get to you.
I'm drowning in you.
Weaving a rope to save myself.
My hearts on the line; bleeding and vulnerable.

I'm coming undone, becoming a something.
Cold and oh so scared.
The doors are opened, you've reached the core.
I'm sleeping inside.
I'm nothing without you.
Only you.

Because of You

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 04:57:25 GMT

I am afraid;
Of being too much like you;
Of making the same mistakes that you did;
And hurting the ones who love me.

I am weak;
Forced to paint on a smile;
Forced to fake a laugh;
As I go about my everyday life.

I am alone;
So scared to stray from the straight and narrow;
So scared to play off the safe side;
Just so I don’t get hurt.

I am unsure;
Of letting anyone in the inner walls;
Of trusting everyone around me;
And of trusting myself.

I am afraid;
Of not having a full heart;
Of letting myself cry for all I feel;
Just so I don’t seem weak in your eyes.

I am weak;
Forced to hide behind these barriers;
Forced to pretend I’m someone I’m not;
As I try to go on existing.

I am alone;
So bitter towards happiness;
So against sadness;
Instead I stand in the neutral.

I am unsure;
Of taking those few steps forward;
Of being anything in life;
And of the world.

Because of you;
I am afraid;
I am weak;
I am alone;
I am unsure.

Making It

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 04:56:45 GMT

Up and down
Forever on a coaster
How to know what I feel
So alone, so far away
Yet I can get through the day
Forever on my own
Fears and insecurities tied together
Falling down but arising yet again
Each step, each breath
A battle each of own
I need to stand up alone
To know I'm strong enough to live
Passing through the rain - I know
I know I'm strong enough to breathe
To live and make it another minute
Each fear, every ounce of pain
Scraped knees; broke strains
Each piece - fragment I can connect
I'm broke - pieces alone
But I know I can make it